Bump in the Road

I know I can't expect every therapy session to go well... it's just like a relationship... there are going to be struggles and nothing is perfect.  Today was the first time I have ever left therapy and not felt better afterwards.  I know my therapist is not a miracle worker, and I can't expect things to change overnight, but I'm really frustrated right now.  I just want to cry because I feel like the only person that can help me at this point couldn't today, and I feel helpless.  I feel like today was a huge step backward and I hate it.  I know its normal to go through this and I hope next week we can work on it again and fix it, because I do not feel okay at all right now with the way things are.  I know she is trying her hardest to help me, and when I shut down, it is frustrating for both of us, but I think a lot of it is now we are diving into things I really never wanted anyone to know.  And for the first time I feel like talking made me feel worse, but I know I will never stop hurting unless I let it out and attempt to deal with it.  I know I will never get anywhere unless I let her in 100 %, and though I trust her completely, it's still overwhelming that eventually she will know every last little detail about me.  I think I just need to relax and think through all my emotions for a few days and see how I feel then.  But I also tell myself a bump in the road does not mean the end of it..... its just more like a detour.